It's me, Pete... from the podcast.

Still raining. Still raining hard. Emma is still sick. Her fever was up, the cough still heavy and hoarsy. Meg, Ted, and Dettie raced her off to the hospital in Mayville this morning. As of the last call, she’s come down with the croupe: an inflamation of the vocal folds and congestion which sounds something like the end of the world. Turns out, it’s not the end of the world, she’s still getting plenty of air, but she’s really, really uncomfortable. According to the docs, it’s not terribly contagious.
David Cole, professor, Georgetown Law Center, is fantastic. His talk today was on “Enemy Aliens and American Freedoms: Liberty and Security after September 11.”

After Tom Ridge, this guy is a breath of fresh air. He’s not a politician, he’s a down-in-the-trenches constitutionalist and civil libertarian. Where Ridge says things like “some illegal aliens have been held,” Cole has statistics and litigation.

I’ve done a bunch of reading today. I finally finished “Down and Out in the Magic Kingdom.” Way to goCory Doctorow. It was too short, but packed with some of the most original thinking I’ve seen in Science Fiction since Heinlin. From there, I moved into “Deception Point” by Dan Brown. I’m about 500 pages into it (reading it on my Palm — it’s 2089 pages). So far, so pretty good.

Symphony tonight. This is another one of those particularly Chautauqua experiences. Outdoor, covered amphitheater, dusk, 6,000 people listening to classical music and reading, knitting, dozing, whatever. But the best part is, the people they bring in are world reknown. Tonight, the preeminent conductor Manhem Nebenhaus from Isreal is leading the Chautauqua Symphony to The Marriage of Figaro, Hayden’s Concerto for Violincello and Orchestro in D major (with guest teenage cellist Patrice Jackson), and Beethoven’s Symphony No. 2 in D major. We like to sit up in the back as the sun drops. About halfway through the concert, this army of bats come flying out of the hollow roof of the amphitheater: spectacular.

The Chautauqua Experience is a touch hobbled by gobs of other-people’s-family. Really, we’re staying in a place that’s too crowded with people we don’t really know and the rain is starting to make us crazy. Note to self: next time travel light.

Tom Ridge. I listened to him for an hour with the 6,000 some-odd others in the audience at the outdoor amphitheater. There was press, probably three or four cameras and a few photographers present. I could only see two secret service men flanking the stage in their slate grey suits, standing at attention.

More than anything else, I wish I could tell you what he talked about. Unlike most orators that take the stage at Chautauqua, Ridge has precious little skill at public speaking. Based on this speech alone — I haven’t seen him in public before — I can say I see precisely how he has been successful in politics. All sizzle, no steak.

He’s a handsome man, impressive. He’s got fine clothes. He’s tall and broad, which can be impressively intimidating. By all rights, he should be successful based on appearance alone. But, open his mouth and nothing comes out. Vapor. Hot air.

The bulk of his remarks was simply a stump speech. He used all the buzzwords needed in this type of liberal crowd: civil rights, security, freedom, etc. He admitted shortcomings in the system; holes in his department where problems have and will occur. He got applause each time he said “I don’t know.”

But, again, the overwhelming impression of the audience as we walked out was expressed in a collective “Duh.”

I haven’t really taken advantage of the rest of the Monday schedule; most of what I’m interested in is coming on Wednesday, so I’ve got plenty of time to read. It’s pouring rain today, this afternoon anyhow, big, east coast thunderstorm with thunder and lightning and wind, the works. Very, very spooky. Smells nice.

Emma is under the weather. She’s got this raspy cough and sounds like she’s having trouble breathing. It’s times like these you wish these pour kids could talk, tell us what’s up, where it hurts, something.

I’m looking forward to the David Cole lecture tomorrow, particularly in contrast to the lead balloon of today’s session.

I’m sitting on the plane now. We’re on the first leg of our dualie through Minneapolis (Small City, I don’t think I like it much) and finally into Buffalo, New York. Apparently, the in-laws have arranged for a limousine to pick us up at the airport there and haul us and our dog-and-pony show of children’s gear into our terminal destination of Chautauqua, New York and the Chautauqua Institution.

I am far more stressed about flying than either Kira or Sophie. Mostly, both of them really need to be fed and rested and they’re fine. They strap on the luggage and smile all the way through security. They sleep on the flights. They are just generally well-tempered people.

For the record, that makes me nuts.

I’m very much not a well-tempered passenger. You should see what we’re flying with this time around: Sophie has by far the largest suitcase, packed to the gills with her highchair, a full bag of diapers and, I kid you not, all the clothes in her wardrobe; Kira has the middle bag, her roller that’s packed almost as full; I have the smallest, my new Swiss Army duffle that forces me to pack light. Traveling alone, I could go for at least 10 days with nothing but that bag and my iPod, Palm, and Palm Keyboard. But no, now I have to factor in all the carry-ons. We’ve got Sophie’s diaper bag, now so full of extra diapers, clothes, toys, and my stow-away electronics that it weighs almost as much as her suitcase; we’ve got a cooler, a great, big shoulder cooler full of chopped broccoli, yogurt, bananas, cereal, water, you name it; and the full on backpack for Sophie, which comes in it’s own handy carrying case which makes for another thing to shoulder through security. Too it’s credit, it makes moving through the airport a breeze: Sophie loves riding high.

Planes, Trains, Automobiles

As happy as they are, the trip has started out on the rougher side of fine. Sophie was a full on grump when I woke her at 6:00 this morning. As was I, so it was something of a showdown. We got our six bags and car seat unloaded at the airport, then I got back in the car to drop it at the long-term lot. There I am, standing in bus vestibule “H,” when my cell rings. It’s Kira.

“So, did you PUT and diaper on her this morning?”

“Did I put… of COURSE I put a diaper on her this morning!”

“Well, she exploded. Pee. Poop. All of it. Pouring all over my sweatshirt, right here in line.”

Still not sure what happened there. When I caught up with them back in the terminal, she had it all cleaned up, less a day’s change of clothes for Sophie and a sweatshirt for her, but clean nonetheless. Just lucky, I guess.

We sat next to the evil Minerva Mayflower on the first flight. Old Mean Woman With Grudge. This is the first time I’ve flown with Soph and sat next to someone who was genuinely, actively disinterested in the baby. Turns out, from the 30-scant seconds of talking we did, that she’s a baseball freak, heading to Wrigley Field to kick off a tour for the next 10 days. Crazy old baseball lady. “Bas-e-ball has been berry, berry, good to me.”

The second flight is so far much less daunting than the first. Sophie’s sleeping on Kira now. We met up with the Strands in Minneapolis (Small City), and they’re sitting right behind us. A word to the wise: never sit in front of Ted Strand on a plane. He won’t stop touching me.

And then, Chautauqua. I’ve had the hardest time over the last few days trying to explain to people exactly what we’re doing in Chautauqua. At first, I would go into the whole spiel about the lectures and the music and the art and the architecture, but that tends to go over folks’ heads. I’ve narrowed it down to this: Chautauqua, during the summer, is the ultimate gated community. ‘Nuf said.

So, I’m here for the next eight days. I’ve got my Palm and keyboard and will do my best to keep up entries as I move through the week. The theme this week is Security and Justice, headlined by Secretary Tom Ridge Monday morning, followed by a handful of fascinating experts throughout the rest of the week. In the meantime, we’ll get settled, and I’ll check in a bit later.

I’m sitting on the plane now. We’re on the first leg of our dualie through Minneapolis (Small City, I don’t think I like it much) and finally into Buffalo, New York. Apparently, the in-laws have arranged for a limousine to pick us up at the airport there and haul us and our dog-and-pony show of children’s gear into our terminal destination of Chautauqua, New York and the Chautauqua Institution

I am far more stressed about flying than either Kira or Sophie. Mostly, both of them really need to be fed and rested and they’re fine. They strap on the luggage and smile all the way through security. They sleep on the flights. They are just generally well-tempered people. 

For the record, that makes me nuts. 

I’m very much not a well-tempered passenger. You should see what we’re flying with this time around: Sophie has by far the largest suitcase, packed to the gills with her highchair, a full bag of diapers and, I kid you not, all the clothes in her wardrobe; Kira has the middle bag, her roller that’s packed almost as full; I have the smallest, my new Swiss Army duffle that forces me to pack light. Traveling alone, I could go for at least 10 days with nothing but that bag and my iPod, Palm, and Palm Keyboard. But no, now I have to factor in all the carry-ons. We’ve got Sophie’s diaper bag, now so full of extra diapers, clothes, toys, and my stow-away electronics that it weighs almost as much as her suitcase; we’ve got a cooler, a great, big shoulder cooler full of chopped broccoli, yogurt, bananas, cereal, water, you name it; and the full on backpack for Sophie, which comes in it’s own handy carrying case which makes for another thing to shoulder through security. Too it’s credit, it makes moving through the airport a breeze: Sophie loves riding high. 

Planes, Trains, Automobiles 

As happy as they are, the trip has started out on the rougher side of fine. Sophie was a full on grump when I woke her at 6:00 this morning. As was I, so it was something of a showdown. We got our six bags and car seat unloaded at the airport, then I got back in the car to drop it at the long-term lot. There I am, standing in bus vestibule “H,” when my cell rings. It’s Kira. 

“So, did you PUT and diaper on her this morning?” 

“Did I put… of COURSE I put a diaper on her this morning!” 

“Well, she exploded. Pee. Poop. All of it. Pouring all over my sweatshirt, right here in line.” 

Still not sure what happened there. When I caught up with them back in the terminal, she had it all cleaned up, less a day’s change of clothes for Sophie and a sweatshirt for her, but clean nonetheless. Just lucky, I guess. 

We sat next to the evil Minerva Mayflower on the first flight. Old Mean Woman With Grudge. This is the first time I’ve flown with Soph and sat next to someone who was genuinely, actively disinterested in the baby. Turns out, from the 30-scant seconds of talking we did, that she’s a baseball freak, heading to Wrigley Field to kick off a tour for the next 10 days. Crazy old baseball lady. “Bas-e-ball has been berry, berry, good to me.” 

The second flight is so far much less daunting than the first. Sophie’s sleeping on Kira now. We met up with the Strands in Minneapolis (Small City), and they’re sitting right behind us. A word to the wise: never sit in front of Ted Strand on a plane. He won’t stop touching me. 

And then, Chautauqua. I’ve had the hardest time over the last few days trying to explain to people exactly what we’re doing in Chautauqua. At first, I would go into the whole spiel about the lectures and the music and the art and the architecture, but that tends to go over folks’ heads. I’ve narrowed it down to this: Chautauqua, during the summer, is the ultimate gated community. ‘Nuf said. 

So, I’m here for the next eight days. I’ve got my Palm and keyboard and will do my best to keep up entries as I move through the week. The theme this week is Security and Justice, headlined by Secretary Tom Ridge Monday morning, followed by a handful of fascinating experts throughout the rest of the week. In the meantime, we’ll get settled, and I’ll check in a bit later.

Hunting The Muse: Franken And O’Reilly

“I started a joke… that got the whole world… crying…”

I meant to post this the other day. And when I say the other day, more than that, I mean like four months ago. I think this is too funny — and it’s noteworthy in that it was shot entirely on a Canon Digital Elph S200 and edited in iMovie. Funny Stuff.

Stupidday

Wow. This is sad. And magnificently confusing.

Press Release from: Vancouver Police Dept.

UPDATED INFORMATION ON HOMICIDE INCIDENT

July 12th, 2003 5:32 PM

The Vancouver Police Department is continuing its investigation into the incident that took place eariler today on the 13000 block of SE Rivercrest Dr.

The police department has determined this was a murder/suicide. The deceased 19 year-old male victim was married to the 39 year-old female that was present at the house. Both parties resided together in that house. The other deceased, a 39 year-old male, was the ex-husband of the female who lived in Vancouver.

Due to the fact that immediate has not yet been notified, the Vancouver Police Department is with holding the names of the individuals at this time.

About 7:00 a.m. this morning, officers responded to the above location for a disturbance with a gun call. Officers arrived and heard shots being fired in the residence. A female and her 4 year-old son ran out of the house and into police custody. A male then exited the residence and confronted police with a semi-auto firearm. The suject then shot himself in the head, killing him instantly.

Contact Info: On duty PIO

Kira: Uh-oh… Peter?

Pete: Yeah?

Kira: She’s got a big poop.

Pete: Uh-oh… you’d better change it, then get started on your homework!

Kira: You think I should do that?

Pete: Yeah, cause you discovered it.

Kira: But, Peter?

Pete: Yeah?

Kira: Sometimes, I think she’s at her happiest when she has a big poop in her pants.

Pete: I hope to God you’re not suggesting we leave it in there.

Kira: I guess not.

Seriously, the hardest day I’ve had leaving the house since Sophie was born. This was the first day I left her all day with Jackie, our summer-sitter. Jackie is a sweatheart, no doubt about it, and I couldn’t imagine leaving her with anyone else right now, but she’s suddenly having some awful separation anxiety and has a nasty case of crocodile tears to go with it. I leave the house and you’d think the Titanic was dragging her under one last time — arms flailing and face contorted — the single saddest face ever made.

There was a time when she was into walking around, picking things up, putting them down, then walking some more. That has changed and put quite a damper on our shoe-wearing, tv-watching, and cooking. Now, she walks around, picks things up, walks around some more, then puts them down. Note the difference — it’s small, but critical — insomuch as we can no longer find one of two shoes, tv remotes, or cooking utensils. Most of the time, they end up in the large planter in the corner, covered in dirt.

Kira started school today. She’s doing really well, keeping her wits about her with all she has going on, but I have to admit, I’m looking forward to her being a full-time student. This is something we’ve been working toward for years — and the sooner she starts, the sooner she’s a speech pathologist. Her summer clinic teachers happen to be some of our best friends from church. It’s amusing to see them gearing up for summer, trying to put on the “professorial aire,” looking tough, even though they’re about the softest, funniest people we know. It’s gonna be a long summer.

This could be the best news since childhood: "Transformers" from the producer of "X-Men: United," Tom DeSanto.

On Jayson Blair

This is a piece at the TimesOnline citing the downfall of Raines to the acid tongues of bloggers. Originally, I was posting this for the archives — another in the litany of offings accrued by the blog community. But, reading it again, I’m getting nauseous.

The catalyst for the downfall of a powerful editor who won seven Pulitzer prizes for his newspaper’s coverage of the September 11 attacks, was the flagrant dishonesty of one of his favourites, Jayson Blair, a young black reporter who plagiarised and made up stories.

The article that gave Blair the most amusement was his account of the reaction of the family of Jessica Lynch, an American prisoner of war in Iraq, to the news of her release. It was datelined Palestine, West Virginia, and described how her father “choked up as he stood on the porch here overlooking the tobacco fields and cattle pastures”.

“That was my favourite,” Blair mocked after he had been found out. “The description was so far off from reality. I just couldn’t stop laughing.”

He had written it all from his flat in Brooklyn. Blair admitted that he was “a total cokehead” and boasted that he had “fooled some of the most brilliant people in journalism”

Doesn’t this sound suspiciously like the “Alias” storyline in which Will was forced to give up his career as a journalist with a smile and a shrug because he’d been making up stories while ripped on heroine? I’m all for art-imitating-life and all that, but this is getting ridiculous.

At least we now have some new career goals for struggling writers longing to crack the code of the news biz: just work hard enough to get noticed and by-lined. Then keep your job by making stuff up.

Every now and again, I look down at Sophie and she’s got this special look on her face: like she’s trying to hold something back, and spit something out all at once. Tonight, she had that look. Usually, when I see it, I sweep in and with one finger do a pass of her mouth. It’s typically something like catfood or dirt. While it sounds strange to those without children, I can live with catfood or dirt in her mouth. I’ve grown accustomed to them both. Thus, the rift that grows between those with small children, and those without.

Tonight, on the first finger-sweep, I pulled from her mouth one crushed, red-and-black wing. Panicked, I did another finger-sweep and pulled forth the mutilated remains of a ladybug. That’s new.

So, I gave her a big drink of water and thanked goodness that bugs are full of protein.

When I was a kid, and I’d do something stupid (which happened a lot), my parents and I would always resolve it the same way: I’d break down and apologize for [insert stupid thing], mom and dad would chide me for [insert stupid thing], and we’d all share a joke and a hug. Then they’d say something I never understood. They’d tell me how much they loved me and that there was no way for me to understand what they were feeling until I had a child of my own. Of course, I was 13 or 14 then and the idea of having a child of my own was pretty creepy, much as was the idea that my parents didn’t know how they “felt” about me. 

Well, now I’m old. I’m 30. I have a child. And, finally, I get it. Sophie’s adorable, and I love her to pieces, but that’s not it, that’s not what my parents were talking about when I was 13 or 14. When I look at that little girl, there’s something deep inside me that hurts, aches, tickles. It’s a visceral, quite physical reaction to something very clearly spiritual. 

Sitting in a restaurant today, watching a little boy only slightly older than Sophie, playing with his mom. He was climbing all over her — and there was quite a bit to climb. He was having a grand time, but it was nothing compared to what was in her eyes. Just sitting there, like she’d been struck by magnificent lightning, wrapping him up in her arms and holding him tightly. She and I shared a look just then, and I knew everything. 

Then my stomach started to hurt again, and I had to call home. 

Parenting is a blast.

Lloyd walks slowly toward me. He’s got a walker that he navigates well enough through the crowd; one of the fancy walkers, the kind with the seat built-in for a quick rest on the road.He’s smiling at me for as long as it takes him to approach, which over the fifteen feet of terrain could be as long as thirty seconds. He turns and sits on his walker throne and smiles even more broadly. “Slow today.”

Lloyd walks slowly toward me. He’s got a walker that he navigates well enough through the crowd; one of the fancy walkers, the kind with the seat built-in for a quick rest on the road.He’s smiling at me for as long as it takes him to approach, which over the fifteen feet of terrain could be as long as thirty seconds. He turns and sits on his walker throne and smiles even more broadly. “Slow today.”

And it was. We were working the Salem Women’s Show, a showcase for all things feminine. The expo center hall was filled wall to wall with hawkers of miraculous elixirs and jewelry re-conditioners and the natural alternative to Spring Water and panties. In Portland, the same event earlier in the year pulled close to 7,000 professional women, age 32-40, making 45-70k a year. Of course, with them came their mothers, daughters, and disgruntled husbands, fingering racks of toys and the occasional undergarment. The Salem event was different, though, lonelier. It hardly commanded the draw of Portland, leaving the vendors to mingle with one another and stare at the ladies who straggled through, who were more confused than anything else, most of whom found more security in the Antiques show just next door.So there I was, sitting with Lloyd Lund at the Women’s Show in Salem. Everything on the man was slow, tired, down to the long, wispy comb-over blowing listfully in the gentle breeze of convention traffic. “You have a family?” Yes, I do. “You’re wife feed from the boob?” Yes, she did. Lloyd and I talked of colostrum, the magic component of a mother’s breast-milk that’s rife with anti-bodies to protect new babes from the diseases of early childhood. Having just had a child myself, I knew most of this, but had it been news to me, I would have bought Lloyd’s story hook, line, and walker.”Wouldn’t you like to benefit from this stuff?” he asks me. Now, I see it. This old shill is working me right in the booth. He comes for a chat, lures me in with his wispy comb-over and turbo-walker and then drops the sale. “Yes, Lloyd. I suppose all adults would benefit,” I tell him, not a little sarcastically. And true enough, he has a pill for the very thing. His wife does all the selling, of course, he doesn’t do a thing. He tells me it’s too much damn work. But he does take the stuff religiously: three pills every three hours, every day of his life.”Does it work for you, Lloyd?” Listening to myself, I’m not treating the old man with respect here, and after I say it I’m hoping to God he doesn’t catch it. “See, I’m suffering from what they call the ‘Aggressive Prostate Cancer’ that’s been eating me up,” he says, “And without this stuff, I wouldn’t be here.”My face was stuck there, in that same sardonic smile I’d painted on while I was ribbing him, and now it was grotesquely inappropriate. After a beat, “Jesus, Lloyd, this shit has worked on your cancer?” “I don’t know,” he says, “But it beat the shit out of that radiation they tried to kill me with. Or those damned LU shots.” I don’t know what the “LU” shots are, I can only assume some sort of chemotherapy. “That sonuvabitch doctor tried to kill me,” he’s still smiling as he’s saying all this, “Rot me from the inside out.” He reaches down and holds on to his belly.He tells me that the therapy for the cancer nearly killed him. I’ve heard that before. Cancer is the ultimate Catch-22: you may live a long enough life dwindling slowly to nothing in pain, or you can try to cure it and die of the treatment in no time. Risk and reward, and Lloyd chose to quit. At 81 years old, Lloyd was going to take the gamble. “The diarrhea,” he says, “the diarrhea nearly killed me alone.” We share an uncomfortable chortle. “Doctor asked me if I wanted something for it, to plug me up. ‘No way,’ I said to him. ‘I want that shit out!'” We laugh again.After a trip to a naturopathic physician with his beautiful wife, Kay, they discovered this treatment. And now, Lloyd, at 84, is up and walking around at the Salem Women’s Show. Kay, at 63, looks not a day over 40 and sells this stuff herself. It’s a network marketing gig a la Nikken, and it’s kept them in food and shelter for three years.”I been shot, too,” he says to me. Shot? “In World War II,” He’s raising his hand to his head and I can see it shaking. The last words come out of his mouth in breath alone, “Shot in both knees, right hand, and head.” Now I can see it, the faint pink patch in the receding grey. It’s about three inches long, narrow at one point, spreading to a trident at the far end, higher on his head. He’s having trouble pointing to the spot and I can see his right hand is fixed straight. Lloyd’s eyes are a deepening red, and he falls completely silent for a minute as I stare.Somewhere there my rapier wit fell away revealing little more than a kid, embarrassed at my gross inappropriateness, ignorance. Lloyd looked embarrassed. I’m thinking, what on earth could possibly make this man embarrassed to tell his story? What could have turned him inside out such that his injuries are suddenly taboo? I want to hear more, to understand his role in the Great War, to see where he fit in such a radically transformational time in our geo-political history. I want to put his story here, to somehow honor the sacrifice he made; the sacrifice of his legs, his hand, his head, the friends he undoubtedly lost in battle. I want to celebrate great gains in the wake of his losses.Of course, I didn’t tell Lloyd any of this.The rest of the weekend, we passed one another several times. He looked tired. I would give him the conventioneer’s nod and we’d smile at one another, me walking briskly to my booth, him sitting not-so-comfortably on his walker. I’m going to call Lloyd and tell him I’d like to bring him some coffee, that I’d like to hear his story, that I’d love to try the pills he’s taking. I can only hope he’ll do me the honor.Thank you, Lloyd Lund. For everything.

This article points out some interesting over-thinking going on at State Farm. I just changed to AmFam because SF was preparing to gouge me handily on their rate Trident. Now, it looks like I would have taken the shaft and gotten less truly important coverage. I wonder how long it’ll take me to get a claim processed if I get hit with, I don’t know, Serin gas? Hopefully, they can get my money to me within the thirty or thirty-five seconds I have to live. From the article:

Bloomington-based State Farm is sending letters to its 40 million auto customers that it will stop covering losses related to: “a. nuclear reaction; b. radiation or radioactive contamination from any source; or c. the accidental or intentional detonation or release of radiation from any nuclear or radioactive device,” according to the language read by spokesman Joe Johnson.